An Unexpected Turn

Today, I was supposed to be lying in my hospital bed, trying to relax before my scheduled operation the next day.

But things didn't turn out as planned.

Apparently, God has other things in mind. I guess.

I was already given the clearance by my Endocrinologist for my surgery. I was given a list of laboratory tests to complete just to make sure that things will go smoothly when I get operated on. When I went back to my obgyn's clinic to give to her my clearance, she suddenly asked, "When was your last menstruation?" "It was on June 23 doc", I answered immediately. I also added that I have not menstruated yet for the month of July and asked if we'll still pursue with the operation. She stopped typing on her computer, looked me in the eye and asked if I was expecting to menstruate this week, I told her yes. She asked again if I get regular monthly periods and I answered yes I do menstruate monthly, although my cycle is longer than normal cycles. Then, without batting an eyelash, she told me, "Let's reschedule your operation next week, August 3."

Although I felt relieved that my operation is postponed, I was really concerned of my husband's reaction to this sudden delay. My husband has already filed a leave of absence from his work for 5 days.

While I was imagining what my husband's reaction would be like, my obgyn began explaining to me why we have to reschedule. She told me that I could be pregnant now and she didn't want to risk it. She explained that if I am pregnant and we continue with the operation, she might scrape the "fetus" instead of scraping the tumor. She said that the fetus at this stage will look like a tumor. I might experience an early abortion if we'll push through with the operation. It is safe to wait for a week just to make sure that I am not pregnant. And if I am pregnant, the operation will be delayed for four months because we have to wait for the baby to have a strong hold in my uterus.


Did I just make a detour?

I was suppose to be heading for surgery and now I'm being held back because I might be pregnant?

Pregnant! That was suppose to be my goal after the surgery, not towards surgery. Could I really be pregnant? After all, when I had my Transvaginal Sonogram, the obgyn saw an egg in my right ovary. Could my husband and I possibly procreated on that egg?

And the answer to all that would have to wait til I menstruate this week or on Sunday, when I have to take a pregnancy test to make sure that I am pregnant.

This is an unexpected turn in my journey. Did God purposely planned this to happen? Did God answered my "baby prayers" instead of my "successful and safe operation prayers"? I could never know, but one thing I am sure of, God is in control. We'll never know, this delay could be God's blessing to me.

My Surgery is Set

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I went back to my obgyn to have my surgery scheduled. I was anticipating that it will probably be scheduled in August but goodness, the doctor wanted to do it this week! I was taken aback, why is everything happening so fast?

Anyway, I negotiated for next week and so my obgyn scheduled my operation on Tuesday, July 27, 2010. I am to stay at the hospital from Monday to Friday next week. But I still need clearance from my Endocrinologist, considering that I have hyperthyroidism. So on Monday, I have to go back to the doctor's clinic, get my clearance from my Endocrinologist and then my admission order from my Obgyn.

Now that my surgery is all set, I am starting to have panic attacks. I am scared about so many things that will happen while in surgery. I am scared of the pain brought about by being injected with anesthesia. I am scared of what will happen during surgery or when the doctor opens me, she will discover yet another bad news for me. I am really scared. And every time I think about my upcoming operation, my hyper-acidity gets activated.

But though I am scared and nervous, I am also excited. This is like my first time to ever be operated on. Not that I like to undergo this procedure but I am a bit curious what its like to be actually in the operating room. Crazy, right?

So it is all set! Next week, I am moving an extra mile in my journey to motherhood. I will try to update this blog while I am at the hospital. Do pray for the safety and the success of my surgery and add to your prayer that after all this, I will finally realize my dream of becoming a mother.

My First OBGYN visit

It has been seven months since my husband and I got married and up to now, we have not conceived a child yet.

Our parents, especially the family of my husband, they have been asking us for a baby already. My husband would just answer them that making a baby is not that easy.

We have tried all natural efforts. We have counted days in the calendar of when I will be fertile. We have tried to elevate my hips so to ensure that all sperm ejaculated will stay inside me. But still to no avail.

Although my husband and I are in no hurry to have kids, I still want to make sure that what we are doing are correct and we are doing it in the right way. So I told my husband that I will be consulting an OBGYN so that we will be properly guided as to how conceiving a baby is done. Also, I want to consult a doctor regarding my monthly cycle.

Because it is my first time to consult an OBGYN, I was really excited and I was ready to learn all there is to know about conception. When I met the doctor, I felt at ease with her right away (she is my mom's OBGYN and my friend is also one of her patients). She is so easy to talk to and while she is asking me information about myself and my medical records, she was also typing in her computer.

I told her that I have a Hyper-Thyroid problem although it is already controlled because I have been under medication for the past two years. She told me that it will not cause any problem, in fact, she said that in most cases, they will just allow thyroid patients to get pregnant. Although, if I do get pregnant, I have to inform my Endocrinologist so that I will be assessed right away. My OBGYN also assured me that thyroid medications are mostly safe during pregnancy.

Next thing that I asked from my doctor is about my monthly cycle. Women usually have a 28 day cycle per month. I, on the other hand, has a rather long monthly cycle. It plays between 33 days to 40 days. When I mentioned this to the OBGYN, she immediately scheduled me for an ultrasound or TVS (TransVaginal Sonogram). She scheduled me on my 18th day since my first day of my menstrual period. This is to check if I am ovulating because as the doctor said, I am a "long ovulator".

After my consulation, I went home really happy and excited. Finally, I was able to make my first move towards being a mother. I couldn't wait for my ultrasound.

That and the result of my TVS will be discussed in my next post.