I have been gushing about my upcoming surgery yet I have never mentioned in this blog the kind of surgery I'm getting myself into.
As I have mentioned in my previous posts, when I had my Transvaginal Sonogram, my Gynecologist found a tumor in my left ovary. Although the tumor is benign, the doctor still suggested that I should be operated immediately to avoid future complications. The surgery that I am talking about is Ovarian Cystectomy.
As my Gynecologist explained to me, the procedure will just be scraping the tumor in my left ovary. The whole ovary will be intact after the procedure. I will just expound on this in later posts, that is, after my surgery tomorrow.
My surgery was supposed to happen last week, but because I haven't gotten my period yet, my Gynecologist couldn't risk the idea that I might be pregnant. She couldn't afford to make a mistake.
Last week was a bit of a turmoil for me. I was really hoping against all hope that I am pregnant. One reason for hoping is that I want to avoid the surgery. I just couldn't stand the idea of being sliced up. I am horrified of the pain. Anyway, Friday came and I still haven't got my period and so I asked my husband to buy me a pregnancy test. I just couldn't handle the suspense. I couldn't wait for Sunday. Deep inside me, I was 60% sure that the test will turn out negative because my abdominal cramps intensified. I woke early in the morning, took the test and the result was heartbreaking.
NEGATIVE.
I didn't know that that one single line would be that heartbreaking. My husband, although he was consoling me, I knew that he too felt bad of the result. We're both longing for a baby.
So now that the results are in, I am gearing up for tomorrow's surgery. My husband and I will be heading to the hospital in a few hours and then there's no turning back.
This is it, after the surgery, I will make sure that the next time I will have a pregnancy test, it will have two lines on it.
